Friday, July 18, 2008

complacency?

So, I just saw my cumulative college GPA, & it's a 3.07. & I was excited about that. Then I thought about it, & a little over a year ago I was in high school, & I almost cried when my GPA fell below a 3.70. Well, I just got depressed because I feel like a totally bad student! Even though this year it seems like, if anything, I've put more effort and emotion into my school work, (I mean, I am paying for it out of my pocket!), I still come up short. Way short. I've just been trying to put grades out of my head and focus more on the fact that I tried my hardest, but then I feel like I'm being irresponsible or something. Shouldn't I just be trying harder? Surely this wasn't the best I could do. I wish there was some sort of happy ending to this, but this is really where I'm at right now. I'm just feeling kind of crappy about it. Hmm..that's all.

Monday, June 9, 2008

I just realized recently that this song is amazing..I don't care about the fact that it's Kanye West or that he uses language that's not exactly choice..I just have a serious appreciation for it. That's all.

We at war

We at war with society, racism, terrorism, racism and most of all we at war with ourselves
(Jesus Walks)
God show me the way because the Devil trying to break me down
(Jesus Walks with me) with me with me with me [fades]

You know what the Midwest is?
Young & Restless
Where restless Niggaz might snatch your necklace
And next these Niggaz might jack your Lexus
Somebody tell these Niggaz who Kanye West is
I walk through the valley of the Chi where death is
Top floor the view alone will leave you breathless Uhhhh!
Try to catch it Uhhhh! It's kinda hard
Getting choked by the detectives yeah yeah now check the method
They be asking us questions, harass and arrest us
Saying "we eat pieces of shit like you for breakfast"
Huh? Yall eat pieces of shit? What's the basis?
We ain't going nowhere but got suits and cases
A trunk full of coke rental car from Avis
My momma used to say only Jesus can save us
Well momma I know I act a fool
But I'll be gone til November I got packs to move cuz

(Jesus Walks)
God show me the way because the Devil trying to break me down
(Jesus Walks with me)
The only thing that I pray is that me feet don't fail me now
(Jesus Walks)
And I don't think there is nothing I can do now to right my wrongs
(Jesus Walks with me)
I want to talk to God but I'm afraid because we ain't spoke in so long

(Jesus Walks)
God show me the way because the Devil trying to break me down
(Jesus Walks with me)
The only thing that I pray is that me feet don't fail me now
(Jesus Walks)
And I don't think there is nothing I can do now to right my wrongs
(Jesus Walks with me)
I want to talk to God but I'm afraid because we ain't spoke in so long

To the hustlas, killers, murderers, drug dealers even the strippers
(jesus walks with them)
To the victims of Welfare for we living in hell here hell yeah
(jesus walks with tthheemm)
Now hear ye hear ye want to see Thee more clearly
I know he hear me when my feet get weary
Cuz we're the almost nearly extinct
We rappers is role models we rap we don't think
I ain't here to argue about his facial features
Or here to convert atheists into believers
I'm just trying to say the way school need teachers
The way Kathie Lee needed Regis that's the way I need Jesus
So here go my single dog radio needs this
They say you can rap about anything except for Jesus
That means guns, sex, lies, video tapes
But if I talk about God my record won't get played Huh?
Well let this take away from my spins
Which will probably take away from my ends
Then I hope this take away from my sins
And bring the day that I'm dreaming about
Next time I'm in the club i want everybody screaming out

(Jesus Walks)
God show me the way because the devil trying to break me down
(Jesus Walks with me)
The only thing that I pray is that me feet don't fail me now

Friday, June 6, 2008

My mom just said to my brother, "You're up kinda early, why don't you go back to bed?"
Why doesn't anyone ever say that to me???

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

I Have a Dream..

..that one day my car will start the first time I turn the key. Or even with single-digit turns. That would be cool.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Senseless Rambling

Okay, so I just need to vent a tiny bit about global warming. And the fact that it's a load of crap. Ha. But really. I guess that isn't even the root of my frustration, but I like to discredit the theory as often as possible. Anyway, I'm talking more particularly about our polar bear issue. Or lack thereof? I asked this question in my Ethics class a few weeks ago, and I'll ask it again: Why should I care if polar bears lack to exist? Has anyone ever really considered this? Because we're so worried about the existence of a relatively obsolete animal, we won't drill for oil where there is an abundance of it. So, instead of solving our impending energy crisis, we save a few bears..yay? I would, personally, rather love to be spending less than four dollars a gallon on gas!!
Sorry if this is cynical or something, it's just really illogical to me. And reading over it, I'm not even sure if it makes sense. I mean, I know what I'm talking about, and I guess that's all that matters.
So goodnight, 'cause I'm up ridiculously later than I should be!

Intro, or something

Well, I've been told many times by Rae and Brit that I need to get one of these, so I chose to do it now, in an attempt to further postpone writing my Ethics term paper. Anyway, I really should probably go do something now, but this should be fun? Yes.